"All the Females I had Relationships with"

I presume you are wondering what I am attempting to perform by writing so much [ even so many comments at YouTube]; as well as explaining to you things that are very sensitive. It is time you knew sufficient data to alleviate your uncomfortableness and curiosity. This story involves many things you do NOT know about yourself and me in correlation to past events. Obviously, something unusual occured; otherwise, you would know about; and, remember many more things than you do. I realize I left a great void in your life that begin in approximately the year 2000. I keep thinking it was the year 1995 and up. I will tell you sufficient information to completely close the cases. In 1955, I arrived in Galveston, Texas. I was "born" under the name Robert James Hocker. I lived not only there; but all over the United States; except for 4 states. The environment and people were very primitive. The physical body died 3 times after birth. I was "miraculously" kept alive ; even though the doctor said I would NOT survive. I did many things most "normal" people would not have done... At the age of 6, I found the one I desired to marry. That did NOT work out... Throughout my life, I was attracted to ALL of the MOST beautifull females. I wanted ALL of them for myself. i loved their beauty; but, was not interested in sex. A the years went by, I tried to take ;and keep them for myself. I was very greedy and selfish. At a specific time period, You became "victim" to my 'Seductions". I loved you very much; but, some people i didn't want because they were NOT ultimately beautifull. Eventually I kept them because they were beautifull in personality. We ALL [over 1 billion total FEMALES WORLDWIDE] were going to be married. I created methods of taking care everyone without hate, envy, jealousy or other negative emotions. Suddenly, I realized something was NOT normal... I analyzed it; then, reached the conclusion I could Not be with ANYONE because I was hurting them physically. It turned out I was incompatable with them electromagnetically...After much research I concluded there was NOONE for me or other females. EVERYONE was incompatable. We wee stuck in a "limbo" .After a while something critical happened to me. After a while, something happened to me. I could NO longer face the females I intended to marry. I did NOT desire to worry; or hurt, them. I was NOT well enough to be seen by them. I locked myself in an electromagnetic "quarantine", separated myself from Everyone; then, kept myself "hologram Shielded" to prevent being seen by anyone. Noone actually saw me; but, they did feel my presence as though I was "everywhere" around, inside, and outside of them. I diverted the memory of me; as well as all events, into their "fantasy" area of their mind. In that way, I concealed myself, was Not believed to be real, and avoided direct confrontations...It worked well.. Eventually, certain groups impersonated me and used the impersonations to attack females in a relationship methodology.. It worked; but, hurt the females torturously...I was also attacked; and prevented from doing anything...we ALL hurt critically. After a specific time period, I encoded the memories of the females so they would Not suffer. I caused them to think of everything they would have hated me for; as if it were under 'Standard" conditions. This prevented them from hurting. I told them it was better to hate me than to hurt for me. I was the ONLY one remaining who remembered; and hurt, continuously. I still contain complete archives on special storage devices... I hurt many people; but, I vowed NOT to any longer. I explained how I was in the middle of 27 major world wars. Most of the females acknowledged I had to fight in the wars. I am the MOST qualified: I am a 9th degree red belt in the Martial Arts, I have a purple sash in the Martial Arts, I am a VietNam veteran, I was a mercenary, I am an expert in many weapons. With an M1911 Colt .45 I placed 1ingle hole in a target with an entire magazine at 15'[3 meters].I shot a prairie dog at the lower area of concrete beneath the targets at 300 yards with an m-14 rifle. I lost my "expert" level by 3 points for doing that and shooting holes in the spotter. My first lover died in a plane crash. I cried for her day and night off and on for 9 years...To my sweetie...I LOVE YOU , Amy...